Saturday, June 30, 2012

I spend a lot of time with these three boys. It's tough being around so much bro love, but somehow I manage it. Truly, though, I know I am made a better person by spending my time with them.

On a side note, I'm happy with the candid direction of this project so far... I like that the pressure of creating a fine art image is dropping away from me. This is my life, and this is real, and sometimes small, but I know this is what I would choose to keep, always.


Thing about today that are for remembering: 

A sleepy walk with Steele in the morning to buy cereal and rice, and get a hot coffee. 

The post workout relief that comes from a shower. 

And hair wrapped up in a towel, dishes done, cheese being stirred into macaroni. 

The cool breeze coming in through the kitchen window while we ate.

A walk at night to get berries for a crisp. 

Making crisp to the Pride and Prejudice soundtrack. 

And dancing. 

And this, sharp light, a cord, trying not to hide. 


Thursday, June 28, 2012

Today was a lovely day. I got to laser cut something for one of my internships! These little letters that I layed out on a computer. A laser cut them (burned them, really) out of 1/8" ply wood. It is such a strange thing that I felt so happy and excited by it. Not just to watch an unseeable laser cut through wood, but to see something that I typed up on a computer screen become real. Become something I can hold in my hand. That was an amazing feeling and I was way too happy. Unfortunately, they're not for me to keep, they're for a project that I've been hired to do. (I won't go into detail about it. I might later but this is not the place.) So these little photos are my mementos of today. 

Below are a few shots from the farmers market. Mm. Such rich colors. I also dropped of my third summer 35mm roll off for processing! 

I am filled with happiness. 


Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Today is phone pictures. I had work, then a meeting, and then a bike ride home during which these were taken. I could have shot another self portrait or something when I got home, but I quite like these. They feel better.

35mm XVI

Second roll of summer 35mm. Third is finished & ready to be developed.


Facts about today:

1. Walks are good. 
2. It was sunny, then it rained. 
3. I had a turkey sandwich for lunch. 
4. Exercising makes us feel good. 
5. Dinner at 10 pm is still dinner. 
6. Downton Abbey is too addicting for your own good. 
7. Camera batteries die before you get the shot you want.
8. Cry. Or not. 
9. I woke up groggy. 
10. Intending to go to bed early is not the same as going to bed early.


Monday, June 25, 2012

Picture taking is therapy. 


Sunday, June 24, 2012

Today my grandfather died. We weren't an incredibly close family, but it still feels like a little string has been cut that was holding me. A fact that made me into a real person has dropped away. I have this image of myself with all these little strings gone, and I'll just float away and cease to exist.

35mm XV

A roll of summer 35mm, recently developed. This summer I am collecting images. 


Saturday, June 23, 2012


Today was long. I'm very tired as I didn't get much sleep last night and all I would like to do is fall into bed and watch some television. I suppose I will do that, later, after Steele and I have worked out and made dinner for ourselves. 

I spent today at work, sitting in on a workshop, and it's strange how sitting in a room all day can make you think the day isn't over yet when you come out. Even though you spent 9 hours inside of it. You still come out thinking, "Wait... isn't the day just starting?" Or at least, I do. Ah, well. At least I have the comfort of Steele's arms. For that I consider myself a lucky girl. 


Yesterday was a busy day. Steele & I hosted a housewarming party, so the day was spent cleaning and cooking. Not much time to post a blog. I just shot these little details. Not much now, maybe, but I imagine they might become quite precious to me. The word on my mind lately is quiet. Quiet and small. 


Thursday, June 21, 2012

I got two rolls of 35mm developed and spent yesterday and today scanning them. Then I printed them out (on crappy printer paper) and hung them up in my studio. The summer is spreading out in front of me.

I see you.

This is a series I did for a final project. The text comes from a little book I wrote when I was 6. These are the things I wrote when I was 6. I found them when I went home over Christmas break and for weeks afterward 'See me! Do you see me?' rang in my head. I don't think I'm done with these words, nor do I think I ever will be. I felt this huge sense of validation when I read them. Like I finally accepted that all of these questions I ask myself are real. That I'm not just consumed with them because I'm in art school, and around conceptual thinking 24/7. That I'm not contrived. That these questions and demands and statements are pure and basic. I am myself you are yourself. I am not myself you are not yourself. 

I wrote my artist statement at 6, and the older I grow the more I butcher it with my wise words.

(I'm not sure what's up with the last photo, it looks a little weird and pixely. I'm going to try to fix it but until now, know that it's supposed to be smoother.)


Wednesday, June 20, 2012

For some reason I like this one where we both snuck in a little bit, even though it was intended to just be our hands (as below) there's something about it that's more interesting to me. We got these adorable salt & pepper shakers at West Elm, on sale. And a matching butter dish. They make me unreasonably happy. I know that it's just stuff, that we would be happy and fulfilled without it, but 
either way we're building a home and it feels really great. 


Tuesday, June 19, 2012

It was a busy day today, working on internship stuff, so I had my first bout of night-time shooting. Which I'm not very good at, honestly. Steele is frowning at me right now, but it's true. I become frustrated easily and give up faster. But tonight was good, I think. Shooting at night and with artificial lighting is something I want to get better at. 

Right now I am happy to be laying in bed with Steele and giggling. I've got some tickling to do, so I'll post this and say goodnight.


Monday, June 18, 2012

I paid some attention to color today. I went and photographed the St. Johns bridge for a project I'm doing, and took one with my digital too, and spend the rest of the day thinking about mint and the various hues it encompasses. 

The St. Johns Bridge


Today has been full. Not all of it good, some long silences and rain drops. But I learned how to use a saw, and Steele and I made mac 'n' cheese with bacon, tomatoes, and fresh thyme. And now there is a cat in our apartment. It just wandered in and we love it. It must be someone's in our building, but we can dream for a little. We named him Salt, temporarily. 


Sunday, June 17, 2012

View the photograph here.

Today hasn't really started. It's been overcast all morning but now it's starting to get sunny. We're going on a bike ride. 

Here's the thing about my bike. I got it for free. It was leaned up the side of a house on my school campus for ages, and when no one claimed it, it was given to me. It's a Schwinn World Tourist. I love it. It's heavy, and clanky, and makes so much noise when you ride it. It has an extra lock stuck on it that I haven't bothered to chop off. I can barely lift it. 

But riding it (riding any bike, maybe) is like being the wind.