debt owed : beginning payments

Saturday, January 11, 2014



It's 1:59 in the morning and I just submitted my first student loan payment. $365.96, which happens to be almost the exact same amount of the paycheck I received today. 

I feel like I just dropped a drop of water into a deep black pool. It's strange to be at the very beginning and to know that this will become such a part of my life, every month. Right now it feels foreign. 

I am lucky enough to have acquired a job that will cover at least, my rent and this payment. It's a temporary job, so I'll have to find something new in a few months, but for now I have some semblance of security and my loans aren't quite as much of a panic-inducer. Like I said in my last debt owed post (which was months and months ago) this is a relationship I'll have likely for the next 20 years, so I need to be okay with it. Obviously my stand point thus far has been denial, denial, denial. 

I don't really have that luxury anymore with my monthly payments rolling in. Which is nice. It's not a luxury really. Denial is a box. A blindfold. What I need now is forward motion and clear eyesight. 




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This series is not a perfect view of how to deal with your student loans. It's my documentation of my own experience with it. 

1 comment :

  1. Dannng girl, that's literally double my monthly payment. Get it!

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