to be continued

Tuesday, September 15, 2015

I didn't go to the gym today. I woke up, and made a list of things to do. Going to the gym was on there. And then it was 4 o'clock and I had to decide if I was going to do it. I had also written post a blog on there. And I hadn't done that either.

You guys, on paper my life is going pretty great right now. But I'm still really struggling with being the person I want to be. There are so many good moments, but there are also a lot of things I want to do and want to be better at that I'm completely failing at. One of which is blogging. One of which is going to the gym.

It all comes down to me. I'm the only one who can do these things. I'm the only one who can will myself off the couch, into the car, to go to the gym. I'm the only one who can put my fingers to the keyboard and start writing. I'm the only one who can pick up the camera, who can open a new book, who can enter things into my budget. I know all of this and yet sometimes it's like my body doesn't want to listen to my mind. My body says "No. You will do nothing." But of course, that's not entirely healthy all the time. I do want to make these things priorities.

So I didn't go to the gym today. I also didn't go to the pet store. But I am sitting here, writing this, I am trying. I am trying to face myself most of all.

Here we are. September 15, 2015.

2 comments :

  1. who's this guy^v?...

    also i'll come down there and make you do it. you say you're the only one who can do these things, but i can be pretty persuasive

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